Valentine's Day!

This must be the worst Valentine's Day of my life.

I woke up in horror finding that I was in the same position as that of the previous night, meaning I slept through my alarm. I was supposed to wake up at 10.45 p.m. to do my work, because I am so behind time and everything, but guess what, I didn't. I rushed to pack my bag and left for school where everything for Vday was in a mess, people were confused, things were missing and etc, annoying students asking everywhere about their balloons and whatever, which was damn pissing off cos couldn't they see we were delivering!! Councillors didn't appear cos there wasn't a proper relay message and no one knew what to do and all.

Then I realised I lost clear vision in my right eye and I couldn't see things that were far very clearly. I thought I was becoming myopic and starting panicking but my classmates said it probably wasn't the case. (The 5 hour nap in the afternoon proved it was just fatigue)

Class was horrible in the start because it was my favourite lesson E***S. Every lesson I get called and coerced into booking an appointment no matter how many times I say I'm surviving well on my own stop bloody pushing me!!!! The reason to why I do not want to speak to him is because I cannot freaking understand all your logic and I do not want to yawn into your face any longer I cannot pay attention past one minute. It's not your problem it's mine!!! I can't stand waking up and feeling nervy every lesson and night just because I didn't have the time or forgot to do some work because he keeps pestering me!!!!!! It's like all that's on my mind now study e***s get off my back study e***s get off my back study e***s get off my back it's driving me crazy I want to slap people and hurl abuses but I am civilised. Just one more bloody time and I will speak to him I cannot stand being so nervy and jumpy and hating one of the more interesting subjects because every freaking E***s period we see him. Shouldn't he spend more time on all those people who don't actually give the slightest shit rather than come pick on me when I am already deficient of sleep and rest (and hence peeling on the sides of my nose my mouth and losing my sight in my right eye) and STILL able to pass my bloody shit of a promos with a C without understanding his lectures and tutorials last year. I KNOW I'm behind the rest (I don't think so actually, it's just that I show it and the rest hide it) and that you're "worried" so you say but I've lost my faith in all HC teachers cept the very rare few who were left behind in my J1 years like Ms. Selva. I keep wanting to swear and swear and swear to release some tension but bloody hell forget it. I'm cool.

Shit I'm past my rest time. Back to freaking E***s and math which I'm ALSO lagging in. And I can't find anyone to study with me and that totally sucks cos there's NO ONE to call or ask when I have questions cos no one is doing their work and I can't find the strength to keep awake anymore unlike the time when we were studying together as a class.

Maybe A Levels is just a competition to see who sleeps the least.

VDay really sucks this year. But thanks anyway, for the gifts. Appreciated. And I'm so sorry to all the AC people who were expecting me to come. I'll see you all soon all right!