Interlude

I'm not technically supposed to be here since I woke up late from my half-an-hour-turned-two-hour-nap, but I am seriously and terribly tired from reading my chinese ancient texts (Guwen) again and again and not actually benefitting or absorbing anything. I seriously doubt why I ever joined LEP in the first place, since frankly though I find it interesting at times I don't actually have a burning passion for Chinese and Chinese culture. Which doesn't really help.

While I'm writing this my msn is failing to sign in. It's odd how extremely dependent we are on this messenger system. Once it's down I feel incredibly nervy and anxious, it actually scares me. Well now they tell me there's something wrong with my internet connection. Whatever.

It's nearing my 18th birthday and frankly I don't feel anything except fatigue. I didn't even quite realise it was so soon till people started asking me out and arranging stuff here and there, like SACO and WHYT! though the F5 date is non-existent due perhaps to our very busy schdules (We'll prob celebrate in Dec haha.) It's been mentally exhausting these few months and I'm sure everyone else like me have been feeling extremely worn out. "So shaken as we are, so wan with care," the King used to say, in the opening lines of King Henry IV.

It was especially apparent how everyone is so tired at MamaBong's where everyone just wasn't as high as we all used to. There were tired smiles and weary looks, but thank goodness it only lasted till my boyfriend appeared. Then everyone just leapt from their seats and started cuddling Isaac and proclaiming their everlasting love for the little heart-stealer. He's only 17 years younger haha! Less than the gap between Demi and Ashton. I have a gut MamaBong will probably never invite us to her place again! Hahaha! What baby eaters we are.

Ass, Nat, Bea and I (E had ballet) then proceeded to Sakae Sushi at the Heeren for lunch. The atmosphere wasn't quite there for some reason. We were either stoning or just concentrating on munching on our food, but I did appreciate the time we spent together. Spoke about roughly where we should go after A Levels (Aussie?), and other plans and stuff. Ass Nat and I then went random shopping, Ass and I for wallets and Nat for random clothing. Ass and I are really the best shopping partners cos our style is like walk in, nothing there, walk out. But Nat's really patient cos we don't normally stop everywhere, so I'm grateful for that too. Ass and I bought Liz Clairborne wallets in the end. Frankly I've never heard of the brand, but I really like the new black wallet I bought in contrast (not purposely so) to Ass's white one.

Sorry if I sound extremely boring this entry, but I'm not in a very excitable mood or anything. As you can tell I've been refraining from using Singlish (unless I was unaware or stoning) because I am bent on correcting my deteriorating standard of English. I'm normally always in a pretty good mood before and after my birthday, but this year it's just not there. And this is my 18th birthday! One of the more important ages in life, or so.

And to be quite frank it's actually quite amusing albeit tiring to keep pretending I don't know anything that you guys are all planning stuff and surprises for me. I'm really touched by all your willingness to do something special for me, but seriously, it's ok, I'm glad enough that someone can stand up and organise something and we can all gather and have a meal together or something, whether you're in F5 Whyt! Saco or whatever. You don't really have to give me presents or anything, especially when I don't quite require anything. Thanks to all those who love me out there! My life is a little more beautiful with all of you around!