SAMMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She is more gorgeous than I ever imagined.

Sure, I mean, I've always known what she is like. Under the concert-y, diva of a Sammi that all non-fans and even some fans assume she is. But true fans would know that deep down there is something special about her that makes her different from the everyday diva. That bit of eccentricity, the bit of uncertainity and growing confidence, that bit of playfulness and girliness, yet undying devotion and determination. That is Cheng Sau Man.

And that was the inside. Today, I saw the outside. Yes she was THAT close. She was SO CLOSE I could breathe. I could feel her heavenly presence. I was like 2 metres away from her, and so was Wankai!!! Her skin really redefines my definition of 'good skin'. It was flawless, you could see a light touch of redness through the translucent skin, and yet this is not the doing of make-up, but true, natural beauty. (I now believe in SK2).

The beginning was the most exciting. Everyone had their cameras facing the entrance where she was going to enter. I think we sat prepared at full-force for maybe 10-15 mins before she finally entered! Then came the BLAST of flashes and screams from the audience. Everyone's gaze was captured by the Heavenly Queen who just entered. No one noticed (at least I didn't) that Stanley Kwan was by her side. She took 100% of the attention, even though she was dressed down in a black jacket, jeans and brown furry boots. Being rather small I managed to squeeze my way here and there and FINALLY I WAS RIGHT IN FRONT!!! WITH WANKAI I couldn't believe my luck and I think we were TRULY only 2-3m away from her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the nearest I had ever been to her, and I began to absorb every single detail. Her skin is FLAWLESS, definitely, and there is absolutely NO SIGN OF BALDNESS (TAKE THAT HK PAPARAZZI!!!!). It is impossible to decide whether to take photos or to continue saving that precious memory into my mind, since photos are really a terrible representation of her beauty. It was breath-taking, that one hour was probably the most precious in my life. (I really don't know why something as trivial as this can mean something so great to me, but to me, she is my hero. Her determination and strength is such motivation to me that the fact that she is real just gives me energy and drive.)

I took photos ALL THE WAY. But seriously phototaking can hardly capture her beauty. I will post them up ASAP.

Still overwhelmed by her...And yes her Chinese is still quite shakey. The stuff she spoke about was quite like repeated, all stuff I have heard before, and Stanley was talking most of the time, so ya.

It is really interesting how someone can strengthen the passion for something, or someone in my case, whenever the reality of it/her is affirmed. It's alarming how I can be so rational ALL THE TIME and lose my head COMPLETELY when it comes to this 33 year old lady. But oh well, what is it to lose yourself when she is your source of motivation and determination? Fanship is just so curious. I doubt there'll ever be a day I'll forget Sammi and my passion for every little bit of Cheng Sau Man. It's just a special sort of (probably imaginary) bond between her and me and thousands of other fans.

By the way, SK2 really works. I am convinced.

Thanks for reading my ramblings. Will organise my thoughts once I calm down.