She is more gorgeous than I ever imagined.
Sure, I mean, I've always known what she is like. Under the concert-y, diva of a Sammi that all non-fans and even some fans assume she is. But true fans would know that deep down there is something special about her that makes her different from the everyday diva. That bit of eccentricity, the bit of uncertainity and growing confidence, that bit of playfulness and girliness, yet undying devotion and determination. That is Cheng Sau Man.
And that was the inside. Today, I saw the outside. Yes she was THAT close. She was SO CLOSE I could breathe. I could feel her heavenly presence. I was like 2 metres away from her, and so was Wankai!!! Her skin really redefines my definition of 'good skin'. It was flawless, you could see a light touch of redness through the translucent skin, and yet this is not the doing of make-up, but true, natural beauty. (I now believe in SK2).
The beginning was the most exciting. Everyone had their cameras facing the entrance where she was going to enter. I think we sat prepared at full-force for maybe 10-15 mins before she finally entered! Then came the BLAST of flashes and screams from the audience. Everyone's gaze was captured by the Heavenly Queen who just entered. No one noticed (at least I didn't) that Stanley Kwan was by her side. She took 100% of the attention, even though she was dressed down in a black jacket, jeans and brown furry boots. Being rather small I managed to squeeze my way here and there and FINALLY I WAS RIGHT IN FRONT!!! WITH WANKAI I couldn't believe my luck and I think we were TRULY only 2-3m away from her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is the nearest I had ever been to her, and I began to absorb every single detail. Her skin is FLAWLESS, definitely, and there is absolutely NO SIGN OF BALDNESS (TAKE THAT HK PAPARAZZI!!!!). It is impossible to decide whether to take photos or to continue saving that precious memory into my mind, since photos are really a terrible representation of her beauty. It was breath-taking, that one hour was probably the most precious in my life. (I really don't know why something as trivial as this can mean something so great to me, but to me, she is my hero. Her determination and strength is such motivation to me that the fact that she is real just gives me energy and drive.)
I took photos ALL THE WAY. But seriously phototaking can hardly capture her beauty. I will post them up ASAP.
Still overwhelmed by her...And yes her Chinese is still quite shakey. The stuff she spoke about was quite like repeated, all stuff I have heard before, and Stanley was talking most of the time, so ya.
It is really interesting how someone can strengthen the passion for something, or someone in my case, whenever the reality of it/her is affirmed. It's alarming how I can be so rational ALL THE TIME and lose my head COMPLETELY when it comes to this 33 year old lady. But oh well, what is it to lose yourself when she is your source of motivation and determination? Fanship is just so curious. I doubt there'll ever be a day I'll forget Sammi and my passion for every little bit of Cheng Sau Man. It's just a special sort of (probably imaginary) bond between her and me and thousands of other fans.
By the way, SK2 really works. I am convinced.
Thanks for reading my ramblings. Will organise my thoughts once I calm down.
Friday, September 30, 2005
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Thursday, September 15, 2005
Honyi the Nerd and Mugger
I'm a MUGGER and a NERD!!!
Ya how did I find this out? I think the studying fever's so on these days I've become obsessive! How Gothic can this get man, all the excessiveness. Like today I went with the Suan, Wankai and Huiyan (SEE I MENTIONED YOU GUYS!) to Fareast for dinner in celebration of Pan Mei Mei's birthday. I was a bit apprehensive cos it's SUPER near Promo and I'm super, super unprepared, so ya I decided I'd go for a haircut there too since I'd be out for once. In retrospect, I think I've been a real mugger today.
I had 3 free periods today, and I spent the first 2 seeing Wang laoshi about my dead and dying LEP for gave me great advice. Then I went to see Ms. Tan my Lit teacher about my paper 8. She too gave me worthy advice, and I really don't mind giving up my breaks for work. So after that I read Hotel De Dream whenever I could, even when I was on the bus with Tingsuan etc. cos I got a bit bored when they were going through their blow-by-blow accounts of ah K, Boobs and Taggy (those who know who they are, know who they are), so ya I was reading. Then after dinner with them I went for my haircut at Supercuts and read Hotel De Dream throughout! In the end I managed to finish my last 60 plus pages and FINALLY for goodness' sake finished my lit text! So now I can go on to other books like Dracula and the anthology which looks rather exciting, though I have thousands other books to read including Hong Lou Meng, Cha Guan, Adrian Mole, She Diao (which I am reading for leisure). So I'm basically never seen without a book. Well it's my fault for taking double lit haha! Oh yes and plus after my haircut I left early and on my way home I did some econs on my tys. I think people were quite freaked out to see me frowning and drawing econs graphs in the air, but I don't care!!
Yesyes sadly I have to stop here to mug further for the Mr. Qiao test tom and do some math! I think I'm going mad. I can't stop studying, and I enjoy it! And that adrenaline that rushes through when I accomplish something is so addictive I can't stop it!!! Hope this will help me achieve my desired BBDD!
Ya how did I find this out? I think the studying fever's so on these days I've become obsessive! How Gothic can this get man, all the excessiveness. Like today I went with the Suan, Wankai and Huiyan (SEE I MENTIONED YOU GUYS!) to Fareast for dinner in celebration of Pan Mei Mei's birthday. I was a bit apprehensive cos it's SUPER near Promo and I'm super, super unprepared, so ya I decided I'd go for a haircut there too since I'd be out for once. In retrospect, I think I've been a real mugger today.
I had 3 free periods today, and I spent the first 2 seeing Wang laoshi about my dead and dying LEP for gave me great advice. Then I went to see Ms. Tan my Lit teacher about my paper 8. She too gave me worthy advice, and I really don't mind giving up my breaks for work. So after that I read Hotel De Dream whenever I could, even when I was on the bus with Tingsuan etc. cos I got a bit bored when they were going through their blow-by-blow accounts of ah K, Boobs and Taggy (those who know who they are, know who they are), so ya I was reading. Then after dinner with them I went for my haircut at Supercuts and read Hotel De Dream throughout! In the end I managed to finish my last 60 plus pages and FINALLY for goodness' sake finished my lit text! So now I can go on to other books like Dracula and the anthology which looks rather exciting, though I have thousands other books to read including Hong Lou Meng, Cha Guan, Adrian Mole, She Diao (which I am reading for leisure). So I'm basically never seen without a book. Well it's my fault for taking double lit haha! Oh yes and plus after my haircut I left early and on my way home I did some econs on my tys. I think people were quite freaked out to see me frowning and drawing econs graphs in the air, but I don't care!!
Yesyes sadly I have to stop here to mug further for the Mr. Qiao test tom and do some math! I think I'm going mad. I can't stop studying, and I enjoy it! And that adrenaline that rushes through when I accomplish something is so addictive I can't stop it!!! Hope this will help me achieve my desired BBDD!
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
To prevent Aedes...
OK will update a little since everyone's complaining that my blog is so stagnant.
I'm currently in the mugging mode, now that MAF and TD are over, both that went supremely well I must say (though this sounds quite thick-skinned). Yes so my schedule is as such: I wake up at 6, go to school, reach home at around 5, shower by 5,30, sleep and read adrian mole till 6.30, dinner till 7, cannot take it and go sleep till 8, then study till 2. Ya I think that's what most of us are doing is that not? Of course I slack a little in between, like what I am doing now.
So forgive me if all that I can talk about is work now. I tend to get a little obsessive when I am trying and attempting to go full force, which is currently not working. My worst subjects include math and econs, and I'm dedicating more study time to it, but I still want to focus on LEP as well, cos that is my best subject (I really wonder how). So I spend time studying math and econs at home, then I meet teachers about LEP and Lit. I haven't quite started on LEP but I will like now, after this, cos of the darn it Mr. Qiao the Factory Supervisor Starts Work test on Friday. I feel I don't have enough time to do all that I want, and I really don't want anotehr OODC for Promo (I'm aiming BBDD) this sucks!!!!!!!! OK I have been rambling on and I realise if you don't know what I have been doing etc you won't understand this passage. But I think I'm not spending enough time revising especially on math and econs crap I'm dead.
Interestingly I'm not really dreading this period of mugging like how I used to previously when I hated studying. Now I quite enjoy it and there's even a sadistic pleasure to see my work all done, but there's just not enough time for me to do all the preparation that I want to do. Having said this I think I should stop here and go back to mugging.
Special mention: Ass don't worry darling, you know and I know we will always be there for you.
I'm currently in the mugging mode, now that MAF and TD are over, both that went supremely well I must say (though this sounds quite thick-skinned). Yes so my schedule is as such: I wake up at 6, go to school, reach home at around 5, shower by 5,30, sleep and read adrian mole till 6.30, dinner till 7, cannot take it and go sleep till 8, then study till 2. Ya I think that's what most of us are doing is that not? Of course I slack a little in between, like what I am doing now.
So forgive me if all that I can talk about is work now. I tend to get a little obsessive when I am trying and attempting to go full force, which is currently not working. My worst subjects include math and econs, and I'm dedicating more study time to it, but I still want to focus on LEP as well, cos that is my best subject (I really wonder how). So I spend time studying math and econs at home, then I meet teachers about LEP and Lit. I haven't quite started on LEP but I will like now, after this, cos of the darn it Mr. Qiao the Factory Supervisor Starts Work test on Friday. I feel I don't have enough time to do all that I want, and I really don't want anotehr OODC for Promo (I'm aiming BBDD) this sucks!!!!!!!! OK I have been rambling on and I realise if you don't know what I have been doing etc you won't understand this passage. But I think I'm not spending enough time revising especially on math and econs crap I'm dead.
Interestingly I'm not really dreading this period of mugging like how I used to previously when I hated studying. Now I quite enjoy it and there's even a sadistic pleasure to see my work all done, but there's just not enough time for me to do all the preparation that I want to do. Having said this I think I should stop here and go back to mugging.
Special mention: Ass don't worry darling, you know and I know we will always be there for you.
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