Mui-jeh was my very first idol and I started listening to her even before I knew what music was. Suddenly miss her a lot, so decided to watch a few of her videos during my break. It's pretty heart-wrenching to watch her so dedicated and professional because she apparently fainted after her performance from some illness. Sigh. Back to work.

Green Tea Ice Cream

I am currently crazy over green tea ice cream especially those rich and presumably extremely fattening kind that they sell at Orchard these days.

I had a weird dream again last night: I dreamt that I went to this ice cream store and was looking for green tea ice cream as per normal and finally I spotted it!!! It was dark green, rich and strong and I was about to reach greedily into the freezer when my dad entered the room and woke me up. -.-

Yea ok this entry has been quite stupid. Maybe someone can buy me one?? HEEHEE

葬花词

尔今死去侬收葬，未卜侬身何日丧？
侬今葬花人笑吃，他年葬侬知是谁？
试看春残花渐落， 便是红颜老逝时。
一朝春尽红颜老，花落人亡两不知。

－黛玉葬花

This is probably my favourite part out of the entire Red Building Dreams because it just encapsulates the fragility and melancholy of life in literally a few words. And it can't be translated because it'll sound so stupid:

Black Jade Burying Flowers (HAHA)
You die today so I bury you, but when is it my turn to die?
People laugh at me because I bury you, but who will bury me in future?
Try and see the spring at the end then the flowers fall slowly, that is the end of youth.
In one morning the spring ends and the younth dies, but no one knows of our passing.

SEE it is absolutely impossible to do this in English!!! Then again you can't translate Shakespeare into Chinese and still keep the humor etc so it works both ways.

OK back to studying -.-

Shit!

SHIT! Shit. shit. SHIT! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT SHIT SHIT!!

SHITTY CHEN!!

There!! I've mentioned you now!!! HEEHEE!!! Oh please if I'm not talking to you I'm messaging you; if I'm not messaging you I'm thinking of our conversations!! Isn't it enough?! Do you have to invade my blog space as well?!
But ok fine I do love you so it's ok :) :) :)

New word of the day:
impetus: a moving force, an impulse; the momentum of a moving body.

Part of Your World

(Maybe he's right. Maybe there is something the matter with me.
I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.)

Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?
Look at this trove
Treasures untold
How many wonders can one cavern hold?
Looking around here you think
Sure, she's got everything
I've got gadgets and gizmos a-plenty
I've got whozits and whatzits galore
You want thingamabobs?
I've got twenty!
But who cares?
No big deal
I want more

I wanna be where the people are
I wanna see, wanna see them dancin'
Walking around on those - what do you call 'em?
Oh - feet!

Flippin' your fins, you don't get too far
Legs are required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down a - what's that word again?
Street

Up where they walk, up where they run
Up where they stay all day in the sun
Wanderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world

What would I give if I could live out of these waters?
What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?
Bet'cha on land they understand
That they don't reprimand their daughters
Bright young women sick of swimmin'
Ready to stand

I'm ready to know what the people know
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers
What's a fire and why does it - what's the word?
Burn?

When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love, love to explore that shore up above?
Out of the sea
Wish I could be
Part of that world

Dreams

I have some of the weirdest dreams in the world.

I took a nap today after getting an entire section on monopoly wrong today, and boy, were my dreams odd. It's not the first time I've had the same dream, but it was more like a continuation. Frankly my dreams are so odd and so fantastical I can sell the ideas to the Wachowski brothers!! I'm always highly skilled in my dreams, and in this particular one I was able to do virtually anything. My nap was too short for me to explore a little with my powers but I was agile and brilliant and etc, with all the attributes of the typical Hollywood Heroine. And so the story was I was working undercover with several other friends (none of them from real life) in this house for God knows why, and it was time to leave. Before this scene was something else. We'd taken over a prison bus or something and were sitting at the back talking and laughing. I looked like me, but I think I was a guy? I don't know, or something in the middle. I received a message from headquarters saying there would be three tries to exit and suddenly I remember a previous dream, in which our escape was thwarted and I died in an explosion. So I was very nervous and I think my whole body tensed up during my sleep and I hurriedly ran around the house packing my things. I of course could do things that I can't do in real life like jump over the sofa, fly here and there (yea, a little like Lady Croft) haha!!! Before I left there was this girl who spotted me and she asked me not to go but of course I had to. Now the thing about this girl is I can't tell what our relationship was. Was she my friend? Or egads! Was she my lover? OMG! WEIRD DREAMS!!! Anyhow I left the place anyway with my luggage and saw my ship at the carpark (yes it was a spaceship, something that resembles what the X-men would take) and I stuffed my things onto it. I didn't have time to jump in because the ship had to go get my brothers and anyway it was only the first trial. And then I woke up.

When I wake up I'd be so stiffed with nerves and covered in sweat that I think it would have been better and more relaxing without the nap. I guess it might be because of the nearing exams, because if my memory does not fail me I had dreams of my own death in secondary school. But then death in my dreams (unless it's of other people and not me) are never unhappy affairs. In fact I manage to fly around after my death, down to Hell to rescue my friends and then up to earth again, and then life does not seem so desirable after all.

SAT

It's 1.30 am now and I ought to be in bed in preparation for school tomorrow but I just can't bring myself to sleep. I'm a day away from the SATII which will decide (to a certain extent) if I can get into the Unis I'm dying to enter. I'm not even going to say here which Unis I've applied for because it's so painfully ambitious!! What a waste of $500 sending the applications.

I did a few practice tests for math and got 600++ each time and I'm really fed-up from making careless mistakes and being stumped by secondary school math. Like I told RongRong I can't believe we're studying for something so irrelevant at this point in time. And it's not like my grades (apparently BDEE now because too many people got A for LEP and I missed the new A by 0.4 MARKS) are anything near average. And when we're not busy studying for SATs we're doing our US and UCAS applications or scholarship applications which never seem to end. How ironic that I am compromising on my grades to do these things that require good results.

Back to lit now. At least lit is fun!

ZeZe

Today's Moley aka Tan ZeZe's 18th birthday!! Though I know she doesn't read my blog but I want to give her a huge hug and kiss for her birthday!!!! She will always be the bestest horse I have :)

And I've just realised something. I'm going to be 19 soon!!!!!! And right after that, TWENTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!! Can anyone imagine me at twenty?? Maybe I'll age all of a sudden and not look like five or something. And HAHA shit will be twenty too!!!!! Maybe we'll be like the youngest looking people at twenty or something. Somehow everything changes when you hit the digit "2" (as in not like 2 or 12 don't be anal SacMani) and you're like supposed to be all serious or something. And then soon it'll be time for all your concerned Aunts and Uncles to wonder out loud why you haven't got a boyfriend though you're already like so old (my brother has already started this routine) and ancient as if like if you don't fall in love or reproduce immediately you'll implode and die or something. And then it'll be like the when're you getting married and when're you having kids and where are your kids going and what brand of coffins are you choosing!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO BE TWENTY!!!!! And it's ok if you look like you're attached or you might be introduced to all sorts of "nice young men" who are NOT nice NOR YOUNG. OMG!!!!

I think I may be watching too many dramas.

I want to travel the world!! But not with SacMani because she'll just stop me from spending. I want to stay at posh hotels, not run-down motels!!! M***y (in case her mom finds this) Motels HEEHEE!!

I was a bit affected this morning by something incredibly stupid, but seems like I'm ok now. Thanks to Meat and SacMani for hearing me out :)

New skin!

Yet another new skin!

I never thought I'd say this but I LOVE PRIDE AND PREJUDICE!!! Mr. Darcy is absolutely wonderful I think Jane Austen is a woman way ahead of her time. I'm gonna read all the Austens after my As!!!

I thought this was so absolutely hilarious but no one seems to think so. It's SO FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And we finally have a new SACO blog!! Go take a look at www.welovesaco.blogspot.com!! There's not much there now but I'm sure it'll grow in due time :)

Love you all! Keira Knightley's so hot!!!

MAF 06

Guess all the stuff we heard was bull because MAF was great!!

I guess what is most important is the company - not the grand lightings, the magnificent fountain, or the blazing fireball. I'm grateful for the wonderful night I spent with SACO, with Mindy and my fellow Singleton Meat, my dearest Calvin whom I always have a soft spot for, Jiadi who disappeared and re-appeared again, JR who abandoned us (pfft!), my Quarter Paul and of course our Half Shit whom I can never do without!! I do miss you all so much and the rest of the 32nd though of course I see you guys everyday and more than I see my family.

Special thanks to dear Bobbert with his ugly hair for putting up with my dancing!! And YVONNE DIDN'T TURN UP YET AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Meat, Mindy and I were sitting at the steps at the field watching people around us, and honestly haha I felt quite alone all of a sudden. It's weird saying this on the blog cos I know Shit will come to me and ask me if I have fallen for anyone HAHA whenever I write something dubious. Maybe it was the haze (HAHA), but I just felt, I shouldn't have to share this night alone. And I guess all three of us were just feeling a little melancholic for a while, because it was such a beautiful night, and there were the three of us, sitting at the stone steps with each other. It's not because I don't enjoy their company, I love them! But I guess it's the first time I really felt empty for no apparent reason. Is it true that humans really aren't meant to be alone? Haha I guess at least I'll have darling meat with me when I'm 40.

The funny things MAF can do to you.

SACO Mega Celebration

We finally held our SACO Mega Celebration on the 1st October, celebrating not one or two, but THREE birthdays, and of course 1 year 3 months and 4 days of Excellence since the beginning of SACO!

Am too lazy to upload the photos, but I must say the event was nothing short of a blast!! For starters Calcal came EARLY!!! That's right, he was EARLY!!!!!! That alone was enough to make Shit and my day because he had to wake extra early to travel from the other end (what's that place called again? Another B place) to Bedok which is like miles and miles and miles away!!! Mindy and I arrived the latest together at 4 mins late with Karin and JR who were like a few cm ahead of us and Paul and Shit who were another few cm ahead of them. So we made our way excitedly and laughing loudly (as we somehow always do) to ECP!!

We didn't really do much over there, just devoured the Prima Deli Chocolate Mint cake our new Cake I/C RongRong bought (the box was left so empty and clean you couldn't even tell there was once a cake in it!!) and went on to do silly things like take gay and les photos though our les photos didn't quite come out. We then started eating all the stuff everyone bought (which was frankly a bit too much we will take note of that in future) including Calvin's Mom's Meesiam, RongRong's pasta, Mindy's brownies, Shit's Maid's Fried rice and seriously there was almost enough for land reclamation if we dumped it into the sea. We went biking and left two lovebirds alone on the beach for two hours and biked till the end of ECP (which was like a whole hour away) and really till the end of our butts. I was (I think some of us were, too) very uncertain in the beginning, having neglected my cycling for a couple of years now, but we could even chat and ride at the same time, so it was fun!! We kept changing places, so everyone chatted heartily with everyone and laughing like when I told them that we looked like we were filming a commercial for sanitary pads ("With ___, I can do anything!"). When we eventually went back to our picnic site we were of course greeted with a sight we will never forget haha!!
But I think the highlight of the day came when we started playing Sacoland, created by Mindy as a new version of Monopoly HAHA! There were no rules and really no game but we still played it anyway and had TONS of fun making up rules on our way!!!!! Like having sudden "miss-one-rounds" at random stops and having "miss-5-rounds" at shit and my statue HAHA!! Poor Paul lost eventually (speaking of which it's the only time I've seen him lose any game) but there were no forfeits because, well, we were too lazy to think of one.
We sat around playing bridge and Stress and some game called Spoon but this all proved too stressful for some of us so the girls excluding Karin went on to play in the water and build sandcastles!!! We built one near the water (it was more like a mound than a sand castle) and put some green seaweedy things on the mound imagining them to be people we don't like and built a moat around it. Of course the moat being made of sand couldn't contain any water so we eventually resorted to stepping on the mound to express of disgust HAHAHA!! CHILDISH.
We then tried to play volleyball (Mindy, Shit, Meat and I) but none of us could catch the ball so we switched to frisbee and none of us could catch the frisbee so we decided to have another gossip session which turned into a serious career, school and scholarship discussion. And then we went back to join the guys for a while talking over a second round of food before we packed up and left.
I guess it's funny how a group of eight really really random people can turn out to be really good friends eventually and now that I think back there really is no one I can't talk to, or to confide in (haha yea even calvin!!) which is just amazing considering how membership was really, really random!! And of course my Other Half will always be my Other Half no matter how many Other Halves we have because I really don't think I can meet another one like you!!!!
Special commendation for Mindy who, we could tell, really tried very hard to be friendly!! I'm sure you will succeed one day, you awkward little genius!
Another of these random post-examination saco outings would DEFINITELY be on my agenda!!
Love you all lots and lots!!