Virginia Tech

I'm too tired these days to write essays on my blogs, and I'm a bit used to writing each sentence in separate paragraphs so it's easier for people to read.

Pausing the hot people thing because it's not in sync with today's mood.

First thing I wanna say today is: I'd be lying to say I'm not worried after seeing the Virginia Tech shooting incident.

Firstly, it has to happen in the country I'm going to in a couple of months, though THANKFULLY not the same state.

Secondly, ya he HAS to be Asian, thank you very much.

Seriously, what kind of sick guy would take a gun and go around shooting random people?????? And how many thousand lives are you gonna affect just because of a moment of selfishness.

And I just saw that this Columbia girl was raped etc etc and almost got murdered or something.

Not making it easier to convince my parents and grandparents. What's with all the mad people!! Are they all emerging at the same time or is it because I'm starting to pay attention to the country I'm going to be living in for the next four years?

And boy, does four years sound long.

I can't wait!! I seriously can. I haven't read a SINGLE bad comment about Brown and everyone seriously sounds really positive and excited and everything.

And yet on the other hand I really feel sorry for my parents.

You know on one hand they've been like the PARENTS, the strongest people in the world forever. And then suddenly you look back and you realise they're just ordinary people, leaning on each other for support.

I know they want me to go have fun and experience life at Brown and everything, but I know at the same time they can't bear for me to leave at all. Like my dad who keeps asking me to re-consider NUS or HKU. Or my mom who keeps asking me to go home for dinner because I'm flying off soon.

And to be honest, it's every bit as difficult as it is for me.

I'm tearing as I type this for some reason, maybe because it's an emotional period and my menses is coming (it definitely is).

Oh goodness I'm gonna cry buckets at the airport.

And then there's Shit. I cannot even leave her for more than 2-3 days!!! I HAVE to see this tiny lump every week at least.

And like SO MANY other people I don't want to start listing here.

But seriously my family really gets me. I guess I never really realised how important they are to me. They are the few people who really matter, the last things or people in the world I'd ever give up.

And yet now I'll be leaving them, for the first time in my life.

Never knew Honyi could be so emotional ya?